Monday, December 31, 2012


Make a wish

Less than 4 hours before the birth of 2013 I feel like the Tin Man with a new heart. What a glorious feeling to face a new year with a new heart attitude! I have no grandiose plans tonight; no big party to rock out at, no over-priced restaurant to dine in, and no depression, melancholy, or bitterness to taint the excitement of welcoming a new year. Yet, I'm expecting miracles--small and big--to blow my mind in 2013. I know that there will be ups and downs but I'm better equipped at facing them. 

Who would've thought that a tiny town in Mexico called Tecate would drastically alter my mindset on life? It was God's perfect plan and I've been set free of the prison I locked myself in for so long. If I could find a warm mountain at midnight I would throw my hands up in the air, twirl, and sing on it like Maria in the movie, The Sound of Music. Since I've returned from my mission trip in Tecate my heart has been overflowing with a deep gratitude for everything and everyone. Call it trite but it's true. 

The day I walked into my office and called out good morning you would've thought it was the end of the world. Actually, it was December 21st, the day the world WAS predicted to end. You see, I NEVER greeted anyone with a simple "good morning" when I walked into the office. I was known as the grouch and I'm sure harsher names were added behind my back. I now walk into my office with a deep gratefulness for the job I'm fortunate to have. I'm thankful for: my family who's tolerated my prickly attitude toward them, my boyfriend who had the courage to tell me I was negative even though it rewarded him with 2 days of the silent treatment, my kids who will always need me no matter how old they are, and the difficult people in my life who challenge me to serve unconditionally. 

I don't believe in making new year's resolutions; rather, I attempt at trying new things every year. Things that will dare me to be a better person. Last year, I forced myself to look for blessings in my life to cultivate my gratitude. Despite how discouraging or bleak life became I always found blessings to be thankful for every day. I took up the discipline of meditation again and the benefits have been remarkable on my well-being. In the summer when my heart was stirred to join my church's mission trip to Tecate I found the courage to step out in faith and heed the calling to go. 

A few days before I left for Tecate I finished reading a book called, The Traveler's Gift: Seven Decisions that Determine Personal Success. The timing was perfect as I embarked on my mission trip with a fresh perspective and the lessons I learned were profound. Since then I've meditated on the 7 decisions every day. I won't have resolutions propelling me forward in the new year; I'll have the 7 decisions of success navigating my life through the unpaved terrain of 2013. 

  1. The buck stops here. I am responsible for my past and future.
  2. I will seek wisdom. I will be a servant to others. 
  3. I am a person of action. I seize this moment. I choose now. 
  4. I have a decided heart. My destiny is assured. 
  5. Today I will choose to be happy. I am the possessor of a grateful spirit. 
  6. I will greet this day with a forgiving spirit. I will forgive myself. 
  7. I will persist without exception. I am a person of great faith.